~7

this week wasn't very eventful ... my mom became ill, she has a meningitis (thats the technical term, it's the same in german. but for those who still have no clue what it is, it's a brain fever. it's an infection and one symtom for example is you get a severe headache, in the worst case you can die from it) that's why she has to stay in the hospital the next week. she's much better by now, but she has to take antibiotics. what her absence means to me, is that i'll probably die of starvation.. but because the rest of my family anticipated this, they bought new food (lion cereal x3, rawr) so i might survive.... by the way, i had an epic mealtime this evening, we had doner pizza from 'haso' the best doner restaurant in the world...apart from that i'm busy doing homework and studying for the exam in german class..so nothing particularly interesting or exciting going on atm.. enjoy your weekend! goodnight.. xOO wow i'm tired..

~6

finally i'm posting my new blog-entry, because i don't want to be late, though i'm not very motivated (i kinda agree with what matti said on his blog)... i'm enjoying the long weekend, as everyone does i guess.... i wanted to do homework, then i noticed we don't have any, except for an assignment in history class (how else could it be? -.-) (okay, maybe there's more and i've only missed out on it..)...uhm...i've bought a new mobile phone, :D.. unbelievable, right? x3 i've had my old one for like 7 years or so... and because i had a prepaid card, i could never use my phone because obviously i was too lazy to recharge it with money all the time ...i don't have a contract for the new phone yet, but i'll get "aldi talk" soon... there's not much other than that... i'm not doing much except things like sleeping long and cuddling with luzie (my cat) >^-^< or playing either the guitar or anno 1404 or reading 'a short history of nearly everything' by bill bryson.. oh, and i watched hangover yesterday. although i agree that it's a good movie, i can't understand why everybody is so freaked out about it.. it wasn't THAT good o.O.. later this evening i'll watch the second one..(some colleage of my mother lended us the two films and she'll give them back tomorrow..)... okay, theres nothing more to tell...i know, that if you're reading this you're bored by now, but i told you i wasn't motivated... if you're disappointed of the triviality and insignificance of this, i'll apologize at this point: i'm sorry ó.ò.. ;) see you all wednesday! enjoy yourselfes till then, goodbye

~5

"what makes earth feel like hell, is our expectation that it should feel like heaven. earth is earth." this is an -in my opinion- quite interesting quote from a book i read called "damned" by chuck palahnuik. it's a story about a thirteen-year-old girl called madison, who died and finds herself to be damned in hell for all eternity (she actually ought to be in heaven as it turns out later, so she's accidently there). the image of hell in the book is not quite how i would imagine hell (or how anyone i can imagine would), because it's a very prejudiced based image, but chuck palahnuik chose it on purpose so his story could take place. but back to the quotation. i think it applies to the majority of people in the world - christians and atheists and all other religions and beliefs, because (my impression is that) most people are dissatisfied with their life and with conditions on earth, and thus have to suffer.. i believe that one can only ever find peace and live a happy life if one accepts that this world is not perfect - not heaven (for the record: this doesn't imply that one should stop to improve conditions on earth). it's that way with everything: if your expectations are too high and you compare reality with your expectations you end up to be unhappy. only few people are even capable of the opposite: being content with what they have and don't expect too much (again: i do NOT mean that one should ever stop to aspire improvements). i think that the reason for why many aren't even capable is that they secretly enjoy or get addicted to being unsatisfied and to suffer, because they want compassion, which in my eyes is the worst part of all of this. (of course not everyone who's sad or depressed or suffers has too high expectations or wants compassion, but some of those people certainly do)..... uhm.. :/ i can't really figure out a good way to end this post..maybe you could... take some time and reflect on this quote?.... hope reading this wasn't a waste of time from your perspective^^ enjoy your weekend... goodbye :)

~4

so this is a picture by me that i finally finished this week (these things somehow take me an exorbitant amount of time)... its a fanfiction of one of my favourite manga characters. his name is simply 'L', he is a highly intelligent detective who fights against an also highly intelligent mass murderer named 'Light' (in the manga L represents justice). the name of the manga series is 'death note', because light has a notebook with wich he can kill people. not only is L superintelligent, spontaneous (rather random ^^), and also risk-taking, he also has some really weird habits and ways of behavior. the first one is his way of sitting: he's always either crouching on his chair or on the floor (the way i drew him) which is why he has a little bit of a hunchback (but not like the hunchback of notre-dame xD, rather like a teenager who has been sitting too long in front of a screen). one can see that also at the rare occasions when he stands, because his body posture looks a bit like a questionmark. he never wears shoes or socks, except the one time when he was acting the role of being a student at university, but even then he didn't wear socks and didn't wear the shoes properly. he always wears the same outfit, a white longsleeve shirt and jeans. the dark circles around his eyes come from the amount of time he spends in front of the computer: basically all the time (IF he sleeps, he doesn't sleep long). he's very playful, and ...just a KID (i love that about him)... the way he touches things is only with the tips of his fingers, thats why he spreads his fingers on the drawing like that. he also chews on his fingernails, mainly his thumbs'. but the most peculiar and noticable habit of L is eating sweets, he's like NEVER not eating any of them. i actually wanted to call the picture 'first, sweet tempation' (but it was too long) so it would seem as if he was losing his innocence by taking the sugar cube. the motive is actually not conform with the plot of the series or even his character, because, as i said, L represents justice and he's not sinning by eating sweets, or really TEMPTED in any kind of (bad) way, it's just his habit. but as a fan, i like to see pictures like that of my favourite characters, or in this case draw them myself. i had the idea of the picture a long time ago, and i made a drawing with a pencil, but it was kinda lousy, but i still liked the idea, and so i declared the image worth painting one more time..thats it i think... i'd like to hear your thoughts, wether they're praise (:D) or critical (x))  :) .... except if your name's benedikt, then i can do without any destructive critic of you... (so you still have the option to compliment me :DD... xDD)...