~12

once more i'm going to enrich the world with a new blog-entry :3 naah, i'm not narcissistic or anything xDD the holidays have ended and one week of school lies behind us already.. during the holidays, i haven't been to any other country. for a change i stayed at home and spent my time mostly relaxing but also doing the few assignments we were supposed to do.. the only bad news is -and to me it couldn't get much worse- the condition of luzie, my cat has worsened, she's most likely going to die very soon.. she's very weak and always tired and she's become thin, seemingly not gradually but all at once in a shocking way, even though she still eats :((... i've loved animals all my life, even more passionately when i was a child... and i think most people who once had or still have a pet, know how much an animal can mean to someone and how important it can become.. an animal is not just something good for cuddling, nice to play with and good for learning to take responsibility with because you have to care for it....because an animal is not SOMETHING, it's not an object... one really has a relationship with ones pet, animals can sense when you're feeling down and try to comfort you.. my cat never failed to cheer me up when i was unhappy and she always puts a smile on my face... i know all the facets of her character and can even foretell what she's going to do next or how she'll react to something.. in some ways a relationship to a loved pet can be more beautiful then one to a human being because of it's simplicity, it never gets complicated ... the beauty of this love relationship lies in it's pureness, and in the fact that your pet loves you unconditionally... that's why it's all the more heartbreaking when a pet dies... luzie came to us 12 years ago so she's been around the greater part of my life.... i like to think of her as the most important part of the family, i can't imagine my life here without her anymore.. i think death in general is something really hard to grasp.. it seems impossible that any person you know and love could just vanish forever and you'll never get even one more chance to tell them how much you love them or how much you miss them... and what's even worse in the case of animals is that they have so short lives compared to a human one....i said that luzie never failed to cheer me up when i was unhappy, but now i'm unhappy in the prospect of her death, every time i see how weak she is... maybe i shouldn't mourn her death until it'll be actually time for her to go and just enjoy the last bit of her time that's left....but i'd be fooling myself if i'd say that everythings fine and that i can be fully happy when i see her... in the end all that comforts me, even though it's not a happy thought, is that i know she'll always be in my heart... okay... that wasn't really a very cheerful paragraph, sorry guys :///... but it fits the topic proposed by mr steffens- wether true, everlasting love exists... in my opinion it does (i guess he was rather thinking of romantic love between two lovers, but since love isn't only something between two partners and my love to my cat is true and everlasting, in my opinion it's as much at the core of the topic as the love between two partners..) hope i didn't spoil the mood of anyone :S see you on monday..

~11

wow, what a wonderful sommerly weather *.*...i'm really enjoying this, perhaps i should go for a walk later on...but despite this nice weather i'm supposed to be studiying for the english and chemistry tests next week, mainly because tomorrow i'll be attending the confirmation (firmung) of one of my cousins in stuttgart, which means i'll be gone the whole day.. and despite the fact that i'm supposed to study today, so far i haven't done anything... i only read and ate.. and ate some more xD.. and i had to fix a problem at my computer -.-...but at LEAST i did my homework...yesterday i watched lady and the tramp.... i don't like but LOVE disney movies.. they're simply the best.. pheww.. seems like i'm running out of topics again x) i know i'm hopeless...i could talk about the books i'm reading atm.. one is called 'a short history of nearly everything' by bill bryson, that i already mentioned in a former entry.. it's not a story, but like a rough-guide to science and scientific insights and findings (it's not written by a scientist, so he explains everything not assuming that the reader has any basic knowledge or even understanding for science, in other words it's an everybodies book, one doesn't need to be particularly talented in science) and an outline of all of earths history under the assumption that the big bang theory and the evolutionary theory are true.. i like the way he writes, but i don't like the parts so much where he tells the life stories of scientists, because i'm not that interested in autobiographies..although he is good in making it as interesting as possible even for people like me... i wouldn't recommend this book to just anyone, because one has to have at least a certain interest in science... the other book is rather scientific (in case you're thinking that the first one also is: it's not REALLY scientific, it's ABOUT science, but it's written for average people to get a basic idea of earths history and science). it's called 'aus sicht des gehirns' by gerhard roth, and as the title already tells it's about the brain and furthermore about anything to do with cognition, the concious, perception and it's limits, our subconcious and wether or not free will even exists and if so to what extend.. i fully understand if i seem a bit weird for not only being interested in such things but really buying  monotonously written complicated books like this one, but i'm just fascinated by those things (and in defense for these books i gotta say that i like the scientific correct way it's written..) it also assumes that the evolutionary theory is true, but i don't think that any book in that fashion wouldn't...emm eyyup i think this entry is coming to an end.. also because my parents and i are gonna go grab something to eat now.. now that i'm thinking about food.. i'm hungry xD....so enjoy the nice weather as long as it lasts.. see you on monday :)

~10

wow this is the 10th post already...time passes so fast.. yesterday after school and today's morning i've spend most of my time drawing valerie's guinea pigs for her while listening to the audiobooks of the third harry potter part and after that to the first lord of the rings part.. i made two versions, one pencil drawing and another coloured one on the computer...oh and valerie, sorry that i spelled marlin's guinea pig 'shrek' like the disney character ó.ò cuz i just checked and you spelled it 'shreck'.. i hope you'll forgive me :'(.. maybe i'll create a third version, but i don't know yet.. theres not really much more i could write about... enjoy your weekend, see you all on monday :)

~9

i don't want to write a blog-entry this week... no-motivation-at-all -_-.. and nothing to tell.. i'll just do what i always do when that's the case: bore everyone (who still cares to read this xD) with my week. the start into this week was not a very... mhh.. how should i put it.. PLEASANT one.. we watched a very moving and sad documentation about the genocide of the armenians... and everyone who's seen that documentation knows what i mean.... in the afternoon i went to the painting course i'm participating in and told them i was going to quit after march, which felt weird, because i've been in this course for 4 and a 1/2 years... on wednesday i went to town to buy a present for jessicas 18th birthday, and in the afternoon i watched the video about the project 'KONY 2012', which was also very moving, but after i learned some unpleasant details about the way 'invisible children' try to reach their goal, i no longer wanted to have anything to do with this project.. if you're interested in MY opinion and the reasons for it, you can read what i posted on facebook. but in any case if you've watched the film about it and mistankenly believe supporting this project was a good deed, you should read this: http://whitthef.wordpress.com/2012/03/07/kony-2012/ ...i'm definately against kony. but that doesn't mean that i'm FOR 'KONY 2012'.. because i don't want even more kids to get brutally murdered...*sigh* i could say so much more to this, but even thinking about it again makes me angry and the thought that so many will participate in this and think 'KONY 2012' is good, and will aggravate the situation in uganda even more, depresses me...umm...  on friday i went to jessicas birthday party, which was nice, especially the food (tacos *.*), and it was a pity i had to leave quite early in order not to miss the train... and this weekend was rather uneventful... i finished the book 'die hütte' which i would recommend to everyone..it's a book worth reading :)... yeah... so, now, can i get a big applause for the long text i wrote despite my unwillingness to?... see you guys tomorrow at 9 am ;) take care.. bye

~8

today i've cleaned up my room very thoroughly.. we have a cleaning lady who comes every week, but she doesn't clean everything, for example she doesn't clean behind my bed, wardrobe or commode... or inside any of these, so that's what i did today.. it may not sound like a lot of fun, but actually, there are times, in which i quite enjoy cleaning and tidying up my room... especially after i'm done with my task, i can be happy about the result, and who doesn't like a clean and neat room? and somehow, it's something that unconsiously weighs on my conscience and thus it's an unexpectet great relief to get rid of it.. after that i played a video game... and as soon as i'm done with writing this entry, i'm gonna make some tea and read a book and just enjoy the rest of this day..maybe i'll watch a movie... in any case i'll try not to take a look outside, because i hate that kind of weather and it also has a great impact on my mood (no, honestly, this weather is just frustrating..)..okay....so..um..bye :} xD

~7

this week wasn't very eventful ... my mom became ill, she has a meningitis (thats the technical term, it's the same in german. but for those who still have no clue what it is, it's a brain fever. it's an infection and one symtom for example is you get a severe headache, in the worst case you can die from it) that's why she has to stay in the hospital the next week. she's much better by now, but she has to take antibiotics. what her absence means to me, is that i'll probably die of starvation.. but because the rest of my family anticipated this, they bought new food (lion cereal x3, rawr) so i might survive.... by the way, i had an epic mealtime this evening, we had doner pizza from 'haso' the best doner restaurant in the world...apart from that i'm busy doing homework and studying for the exam in german class..so nothing particularly interesting or exciting going on atm.. enjoy your weekend! goodnight.. xOO wow i'm tired..

~6

finally i'm posting my new blog-entry, because i don't want to be late, though i'm not very motivated (i kinda agree with what matti said on his blog)... i'm enjoying the long weekend, as everyone does i guess.... i wanted to do homework, then i noticed we don't have any, except for an assignment in history class (how else could it be? -.-) (okay, maybe there's more and i've only missed out on it..)...uhm...i've bought a new mobile phone, :D.. unbelievable, right? x3 i've had my old one for like 7 years or so... and because i had a prepaid card, i could never use my phone because obviously i was too lazy to recharge it with money all the time ...i don't have a contract for the new phone yet, but i'll get "aldi talk" soon... there's not much other than that... i'm not doing much except things like sleeping long and cuddling with luzie (my cat) >^-^< or playing either the guitar or anno 1404 or reading 'a short history of nearly everything' by bill bryson.. oh, and i watched hangover yesterday. although i agree that it's a good movie, i can't understand why everybody is so freaked out about it.. it wasn't THAT good o.O.. later this evening i'll watch the second one..(some colleage of my mother lended us the two films and she'll give them back tomorrow..)... okay, theres nothing more to tell...i know, that if you're reading this you're bored by now, but i told you i wasn't motivated... if you're disappointed of the triviality and insignificance of this, i'll apologize at this point: i'm sorry ó.ò.. ;) see you all wednesday! enjoy yourselfes till then, goodbye

~5

"what makes earth feel like hell, is our expectation that it should feel like heaven. earth is earth." this is an -in my opinion- quite interesting quote from a book i read called "damned" by chuck palahnuik. it's a story about a thirteen-year-old girl called madison, who died and finds herself to be damned in hell for all eternity (she actually ought to be in heaven as it turns out later, so she's accidently there). the image of hell in the book is not quite how i would imagine hell (or how anyone i can imagine would), because it's a very prejudiced based image, but chuck palahnuik chose it on purpose so his story could take place. but back to the quotation. i think it applies to the majority of people in the world - christians and atheists and all other religions and beliefs, because (my impression is that) most people are dissatisfied with their life and with conditions on earth, and thus have to suffer.. i believe that one can only ever find peace and live a happy life if one accepts that this world is not perfect - not heaven (for the record: this doesn't imply that one should stop to improve conditions on earth). it's that way with everything: if your expectations are too high and you compare reality with your expectations you end up to be unhappy. only few people are even capable of the opposite: being content with what they have and don't expect too much (again: i do NOT mean that one should ever stop to aspire improvements). i think that the reason for why many aren't even capable is that they secretly enjoy or get addicted to being unsatisfied and to suffer, because they want compassion, which in my eyes is the worst part of all of this. (of course not everyone who's sad or depressed or suffers has too high expectations or wants compassion, but some of those people certainly do)..... uhm.. :/ i can't really figure out a good way to end this post..maybe you could... take some time and reflect on this quote?.... hope reading this wasn't a waste of time from your perspective^^ enjoy your weekend... goodbye :)

~4

so this is a picture by me that i finally finished this week (these things somehow take me an exorbitant amount of time)... its a fanfiction of one of my favourite manga characters. his name is simply 'L', he is a highly intelligent detective who fights against an also highly intelligent mass murderer named 'Light' (in the manga L represents justice). the name of the manga series is 'death note', because light has a notebook with wich he can kill people. not only is L superintelligent, spontaneous (rather random ^^), and also risk-taking, he also has some really weird habits and ways of behavior. the first one is his way of sitting: he's always either crouching on his chair or on the floor (the way i drew him) which is why he has a little bit of a hunchback (but not like the hunchback of notre-dame xD, rather like a teenager who has been sitting too long in front of a screen). one can see that also at the rare occasions when he stands, because his body posture looks a bit like a questionmark. he never wears shoes or socks, except the one time when he was acting the role of being a student at university, but even then he didn't wear socks and didn't wear the shoes properly. he always wears the same outfit, a white longsleeve shirt and jeans. the dark circles around his eyes come from the amount of time he spends in front of the computer: basically all the time (IF he sleeps, he doesn't sleep long). he's very playful, and ...just a KID (i love that about him)... the way he touches things is only with the tips of his fingers, thats why he spreads his fingers on the drawing like that. he also chews on his fingernails, mainly his thumbs'. but the most peculiar and noticable habit of L is eating sweets, he's like NEVER not eating any of them. i actually wanted to call the picture 'first, sweet tempation' (but it was too long) so it would seem as if he was losing his innocence by taking the sugar cube. the motive is actually not conform with the plot of the series or even his character, because, as i said, L represents justice and he's not sinning by eating sweets, or really TEMPTED in any kind of (bad) way, it's just his habit. but as a fan, i like to see pictures like that of my favourite characters, or in this case draw them myself. i had the idea of the picture a long time ago, and i made a drawing with a pencil, but it was kinda lousy, but i still liked the idea, and so i declared the image worth painting one more time..thats it i think... i'd like to hear your thoughts, wether they're praise (:D) or critical (x))  :) .... except if your name's benedikt, then i can do without any destructive critic of you... (so you still have the option to compliment me :DD... xDD)...

~3

you might have guessed it, i still don't have a specific topic to write about (maybe i should at least START to think about that..) ... so i'll write again about what i've been up to. this week as you all know, school was cancelled from tuesday to thursday so we could go to an event for pupils, where one can inform oneself about several subjects for university, or in general, opportunities one can take during ones studies, called 'hobit'.. though i think the idea of such an event is great, in practise it was disastrous. on tuesday i wanted to go to the lecture about mathematics but i overslept a little and my father was in the bathroom so i decided to skip maths and only go to the lecture about a semester or an intership abroad. but the lecture was boring as hell and not even informative and afterwards i just looked at all the stands that presented themselves and collected some brochures..on wednesday i went to religion class in the morning and then katja and i went to a restaurant called 'saray' to eat something cuz we still had about 2 hours until we could go to the psychology lecture we wanted to participate in. we were there about 45 mins before the actual lecture and still there already was a huge croud of people..we met some of our classmates and waited to see if we could come in.. now i know how the people at loveparade must have felt.. after what felt like an eternity of waiting, (because waiting feels a lot longer if you theres no air and you're cuddling with hundreds of strangers against your will,) we were told the lecture was full. katja, jessica and i walked across the trade fair one more time and i decided not to go to the maths lecture because then i had to wait 2 hours.. we said goodbye and went home. and on thursday i wanted to go to philosophy but i stood up too late again and then i was in the chemistry lecture which was the only thing that made the event at least a bit worth it, because it was interesting and informative, but on the other hand it didn't help me decide what to do with my life or even what to study....so in the end 'hobit' wasn't very succesful for me.. but it was good to have time for other things than school for three days...homework for example ;) but also reading, drawing and i took a walk during a beautiful sunset...

~2

Hi...
I still don't know what to write. I mean I don't have a specific topic that I want to talk about, but I have to write SOMETHING...phew...
currently I'm always watching the My Little Pony - Friendship is Magic-series on YT. I know what you think: My Little Pony? Wow, didn't know Gwen was THAT immature... I don't have an excuse or anything, I'm just still a child. (somehow it's really captivating and teaches good lessons about friendship ó.ò and also it can be really funny...) the only GOOD reason is maybe that I watch it in english (don't know if there even is a german version).. but thats not why I watch it. I watch all movies in english if thats the original language, cause films are always better and obviously more original in the original language (I also watch german films in german and french ones in french.. I even once watched one movie in japanese with english subtitles xD)..

what else... I read a book by Stephen King - 'Full Dark, No Stars' which is already good because its by Stephen King, and he's a really good author in general... it's always well written and he has the ability to make any topic interesting. 'Full Dark, No Stars' is a collection of short-stories (always around 100-150 pages or so) which I normally don't enjoy so much, I prefer longer stories but I needed a book and I knew it would be good, because it was by Stephen King. 'The Stand' is another book by him that I read, which was REALLY really good (around 1200 pages). I recommend these books to anyone who likes a mixture of crime and fantasy or some (world-)conspiracy, or just enjoys reading. I could lend 'Full Dark, No Stars' to someone (as soon as I'm finished), if one of you is interested- it's in english-, but I don't own 'The Stand'...

Maybe next week I sum the book up, if I can't come up with anything else.... Today I'll go to Marieke's birthday party, if everything works out as it should... so.. that's it for this time.. (I'm proud I wrote so much) see some of you later this day (hopefully) bye :) oh and here is a link about one of the funniest and most epic scenes of MLP xDD(don't know wether it's funny out of the context, my sister didn't laugh...):  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xGck7U-UK2c

~1

So I guess this is my new blog (for english classes)...heyy guys :)

don't really know what to write. umm... i'm finally back home (after 3 weeks of holiday), able to cuddle with my cat again (she's still alive °(^o^)°), still a little bit exhausted (and by now really tired).....drinking tea while watching the first pokémon movie (i loove it *.*).. and afterwards i'm gonna go to bed otherwise i'll never survive school tomorrow (at least i have late classes ^^')..well see you guys tomorrow, sleep well :) (wow, lots of parenthesises here o.O)