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once more i'm going to enrich the world with a new blog-entry :3 naah, i'm not narcissistic or anything xDD the holidays have ended and one week of school lies behind us already.. during the holidays, i haven't been to any other country. for a change i stayed at home and spent my time mostly relaxing but also doing the few assignments we were supposed to do.. the only bad news is -and to me it couldn't get much worse- the condition of luzie, my cat has worsened, she's most likely going to die very soon.. she's very weak and always tired and she's become thin, seemingly not gradually but all at once in a shocking way, even though she still eats :((... i've loved animals all my life, even more passionately when i was a child... and i think most people who once had or still have a pet, know how much an animal can mean to someone and how important it can become.. an animal is not just something good for cuddling, nice to play with and good for learning to take responsibility with because you have to care for it....because an animal is not SOMETHING, it's not an object... one really has a relationship with ones pet, animals can sense when you're feeling down and try to comfort you.. my cat never failed to cheer me up when i was unhappy and she always puts a smile on my face... i know all the facets of her character and can even foretell what she's going to do next or how she'll react to something.. in some ways a relationship to a loved pet can be more beautiful then one to a human being because of it's simplicity, it never gets complicated ... the beauty of this love relationship lies in it's pureness, and in the fact that your pet loves you unconditionally... that's why it's all the more heartbreaking when a pet dies... luzie came to us 12 years ago so she's been around the greater part of my life.... i like to think of her as the most important part of the family, i can't imagine my life here without her anymore.. i think death in general is something really hard to grasp.. it seems impossible that any person you know and love could just vanish forever and you'll never get even one more chance to tell them how much you love them or how much you miss them... and what's even worse in the case of animals is that they have so short lives compared to a human one....i said that luzie never failed to cheer me up when i was unhappy, but now i'm unhappy in the prospect of her death, every time i see how weak she is... maybe i shouldn't mourn her death until it'll be actually time for her to go and just enjoy the last bit of her time that's left....but i'd be fooling myself if i'd say that everythings fine and that i can be fully happy when i see her... in the end all that comforts me, even though it's not a happy thought, is that i know she'll always be in my heart... okay... that wasn't really a very cheerful paragraph, sorry guys :///... but it fits the topic proposed by mr steffens- wether true, everlasting love exists... in my opinion it does (i guess he was rather thinking of romantic love between two lovers, but since love isn't only something between two partners and my love to my cat is true and everlasting, in my opinion it's as much at the core of the topic as the love between two partners..) hope i didn't spoil the mood of anyone :S see you on monday..